To the would-be writer In Cold Blood

Google image search of Babe Paley... whose bad blood friendship was the last thing on his mind before death
Google image search of Babe Paley… whose bad blood friendship was the last thing on Capote’s mind before his death

The poor would-be writer who told this to Truman Capote when he was beginning his research for In Cold Blood: “Most of my ideas for stories, I get them out of the newspaper -you know.?” The story walked into this English teacher’s front door but he ended up becoming a paragraph in someone else’s non-fiction novel. Capote does give the English teacher one thing, that he at least looks literary, kind of like a young Ernest Hemingway, married with children out in Kansas and not Paris.

My favorite German philosophy professor would often like to explain why most people never write that novel or pen that poem. (“50 to 60% of educated Americans believe themselves to be poets!” Pippin) As long as it stays inside them, the person would never have to acknowledge the truth – that his poem/novel actually sucks. According to Nietzsche via Pippin, all the ideas that we have of ourselves are unknown truths and only what we release into the world can tell us who we really are.

 

Ai Weiwei in Contemporary American Literature

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Google image search (Tate Modern)

Ai Weiwei’s sunflower seeds installation has made it into a recent work of fiction How to be a Grown-up by Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus. It was also my first experience of his work in the flesh. In the novel, a cameo character’s daughter chews on a sunflower seed and her mother immediately calls her art dealer to ask if Mr. Weiwei can provide a replacement piece since the sunflowers were purchased with an adherence toward feng shui and one less was gonna fuck that up. The moment I read this, I thought these two women writers are comic geniuses. While it was being shown at Tate Modern, edible sunflowers were given away as exhibition souvenirs.

 

Some Damn Good Writing

Image from the Atlanta "White Privilege" Ta-Nehisi Coates
Image from The Atlantic “White Privilege” Ta-Nehisi Coates

During a time when I wanted to avoid greeting my own thoughts, I immersed myself in the writing of Ta-Nehisi Coates. His writing led me calmly, step-by-step into the body politic of the African-American male. I started with “The Case for Reparations” and then moved on to his two non-fiction works Between the World and Me and My Beautiful Struggle back to his longer Atlantic pieces on the Obamas and the Negro Family. By unintentionally moving backward, I rewound the journey of how he became a writer.

His voice was fresh,  written in a measured, well-tempered cadence; specifically his most recent works, but his writing was quietly calling upon a bold revolutionary awakening, a call for the Conscious citizen that took me by surprise during a time that has been blanketed over as post-racial. He made calls for a “post-racist” era stemming from a clear-eyed assessment of the real scape of the land.

As an atheist and a feminist, his truth came down to the black body, a body that had been exploited, ravaged and destroyed for centuries in the US and continues to be so. Coates calls this fact heritage and in a long beautiful letter to his son, tells him he has to deal with this head on, no dreaming, no illusions. In America, a father warns, possessing a black body makes holding onto life precarious but this doesn’t mean you should stop wearing hoodies or take pre-cautions in being who you are. Here was a writer developing a vocabulary to clarify truths while I had been immersed in click-bait theatrics.

 

Melancholy: Orhan Pamuk’s Istanbul

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Snow in Istanbul (Google image search)
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Young Pamuk drawing (Google search image)

Istanbul: Memories and the City

In a city whose colors can easily turn drab and dark by stumbling around wrong corners, one’s eyes constantly refer back toward the Bosphorus as a reminder of its beauty. Pamuk describes a similar orientation in his memoir of Istanbul and his childhood. The Bosphorus encapsulated for its residents a circus of life, death, and entertainment as the heart of the city with a soul deep enough to forever swallow whole anything that fell in. Ships and cruise liners from all over the world would flow through challenging the children to identify each and every one, car accidents consisted of leaps of faith into the Bosphorus and old wooden Ottoman mansions burned and served as a pastime spectacle. The last vanishing remnants of an empire for child’s play.

For Pamuk, while everyone was drawn to the Bosphorus, he was also drawn to the streets, those melancholy, dark alleys where he spent his formative years wandering. He lovingly tells the story of some of his favorite chroniclers of the city, whether it be in the form of drawings or out of print encyclopedias seen through foreign eyes or as natives. A young French expat Antoine Melling comes to Istanbul and gets commissioned to design buildings and interior spaces and draw some landscapes by an Ottoman Princess only to have his money cut when he marries an Italian. An homosexual academic Reşat Ekrem Koçu takes on the task of completing an encyclopedia of Istanbul also including youths or street boys he encountered on the streets he had crushed on.

A view of the Bosphorus from Antoine Melling’s Voyage pittoresque de Constantinople et des rives du Bosphore (Google image search)
A view of the Bosphorus from Antoine Melling’s Voyage pittoresque de Constantinople et des rives du Bosphore (Google image search)

Pamuk also grapples with the relic of a former Ottoman glory and the poverty that could be seen walking the streets. He admits to being a victim of seeing the city through the receptacle of a critical Western lens but approves of this over a romanticization of the past.

James Baldwin in Istanbul

“You will never make a carrière here in France, you know that as well as I. You will just grow old and discontented and you will make me a terrible life and then I will leave you.” French lover to his expat American

Another Country James Baldwin

James Baldwin in Istanbul (Google image search)
James Baldwin in Istanbul (Google image search)

This portrait of Baldwin in Istanbul, searching for a home, searching for something, with his novel Another Country in his suitcase speaks to my condition like no other portrait. At times, most times, I am afraid of simply growing old and making a terrible life and having no choice but to live it. If you flew into nowhere, you’re gonna have to live there. Baldwin’s slight figure and the prominence most specifically of his eyes reminds me of someone in the most peculiar way, with his obvious intelligence and homoeroticism. But Baldwin’s eloquence and riveting manner in speech does not translate to his fiction writing (his non-fiction writing is another story). In this respect, his ideas and his presence are much more powerful than his talent for fiction writing.

“China Rich Girlfriend” through Ta-Nehisi Coates

By different means but with a strangely common objective, I’ve been reading two writers concurrently, Kevin Kwan and Ta-Nehisi Coates, of the non-white, non-Jewish persuasion. Having grounded myself, all the way from Berlin, in the contemporary New York literary scene, I was particularly struck by the freshness of one writing voice, that of Ta-Neishi Coates. His literary tradition stemmed from a deep African-American heritage, one that only gets the most singular of treatments (singular in the sense of a single book) within the broader study of English/ American literature. His most recent work, Between the World and Me can be found on two separate bottom display shelves of Berlin’s Dussmann English bookstore. I took note it was placed on the bottom.

Their common objective, a telling of their stories to release to the world that yes, there exists a beautiful middle America where African-Americans exist and yes, there exists extremely wealthy Asians whose wealth goes back generations. In one case, we are the not just the ghetto, drug-dealing, drug-using, imprisoned, pariah underclass, and in the other, no we are not all vulgar, uneducated in terms of class consciousness, nouveau riche, buying up all your Louis Vuitton, rich dumb consumers.

Both writers try to bring a conscious awareness to a popular Western culture which pigeonholes them into ugly archetypes. In Kevin Kwan’s opening prologue in the first book to his generational family trilogy, Crazy Rich Asians, he illustrates a typical racist episode in London and provides for any reader who has been classified as déclassé solely by their outer appearance or ethnicity, a wet revenge fantasy.

A wealthy Singapore Chinese family find themselves soaked from the London rain trying to check into a room with their extended family including several aunts and some kids into an exclusive hotel.
“The Dorchester or the Ritz might let this kind in, but this was the Calthorpe, owned by the Calthorpe-Cavendish-Gores since the reign of George IV and run for all intents and purposes like a private club for the sort of families that appeared in Debrett’s or the Almanch de Gotha. Ormsby considered the bedraggled women and the dripping children. The Dowager Marchioness of Uckfield was staying through the weekend, and he could scarcely imagine what she would make of these folk appearing at breakfast tomorrow…

“Where are we suppose to go at this hour?” Eleanor asked.
“Perhaps someplace in Chinatown?” Ormbsy sniffed.”

Kevin Kwan

With their reservation denied, Eleanor calls her husband who realizes he knows Lord Calthorpe and knows he wants to sell his damn hotel and so he buys it. An hour later Eleanor walks back into the Calthorpe with Lord Calthorpe-Cavendish-Gore and tells Ormbsy to leave the premise.

Ta-Nahisi Coates describes in The Beautiful Struggle the cosmopolitan and urbane nature of Howard University, or the Mecca. The main difference between the two writers comes from whose measuring stick the writer uses. Coates doesn’t care if the reader shares his referential knowledge or not, his measuring stick is a homegrown one that isn’t simply an incorporation of local jargon. It is not Harvard, it is the Mecca. Kwan, on the hand either needs Western/English signifiers of the elite to prove a point or the infiltration of colonialism and Western power has been so strong in Asian culture, there simply is no Asian version of Oxford or Stowe strong enough on an international playing field, his measuring stick has to be borrowed.

Martin Eden

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I read this künstlerroman about 6 years ago and if I was a few years younger, I would have read it again right now before writing this post but hazy memory will have to do. It’s strange what remains and what gets forgotten, all those words and hours and the most random stuff lives on.

What crosses my mind when I try to recall this book foremost, comes from the moment the relationship between the working-class landlady and the protagonist hero changes. Although he is a Prol just like her, since she sees him writing and in pursuit of the literary, she regards him as something she is not and places him higher. One day, the details are not completely clear, she finds herself with too much ironing work and the protagonist offers to help, having done all kinds of menial labor jobs. When she sees him ironing, not only knowing how to but looking as though he might have even worked in a laundry, her regard for him falls. She sees him like herself, as a Prol. An act of kindness gives his previous class status away and she doesn’t bother to kiss his ass anymore.

The hero educates himself throughout the novel (Nietzsche) and tries to make himself worthy of this bourgeois girl he falls in love with and she waits for him but then she starts wanting faster results which is understandable. She wants him to transfer his love of books and writing to the law, in other words, she wants him to settle.

Before eventual success comes, his working-class family and friends reject him (he has to borrow money), the girl’s belief in him starts to waver and his landlady doesn’t look at him in the same way and everyone just wants him to get a fucking job or enter a stable, respectable profession. He is left to struggle on his own, in his room, waiting for the post. Then one day, he gets published, and then published again, gets paid, gets accolades, and then finally fame. During this transition, he is still in the same room, writing but all of a sudden, the landlady starts to respect him again, his family reaches out to him and invites him over for dinner, strangers invite him to parties, and the girl, well she acts as though she never lost faith. But its all too late, he’s already recognized the general stupidity of humanity. An overwhelming sadness envelopes him and his lone recognition that he was the same person, doing the same thing and no one gave a damn before the fame.

For all the love and attention that finally comes with success, some reap the benefits and others die from the hypocrisy.

“Don’t ask”

love-affairs   “Lasting love, when it happens, is much more visceral than either Nate or Hannah imagines.” Maria Russo

Waldman does a great job of portraying women (Nathaniel’s past girlfriends, lovers, one-night stands) in an almost villainous way to her poor male protagonist, an literary intellectual. With all these women expecting and wanting so much from you, what is a guy suppose to do. As he notes of women particularly in their 30s, when their career-focused 20s makes way for a relationship becoming the number #1 priority. The women spend so much time asking questions that shouldn’t be asked. So much time making one feel guilty and bad about actions that are almost, from a biological point of view, out of Nathaniel’s control. What are these women expecting when you corner an ex and ask, “Why were you such an asshole?” or writing long emails wanting to talk more about a relationship that ended.

So what is the visceral that Waldman alludes to and the characters don’t even realize themselves? Well, first you have Hannah, the nice, sweet girl who is Nate’s intellectual equal and whose writing he respects but her butt looks flat in certain jeans and her career is a bit frustrated. In Nate’s opinion, she isn’t serious enough about her book deal and by the end of the relationship spends more time trying to appease him than actually working on her book deal. Then you have Greer, whose breasts are Nate’s ideal shape, large enough to fill a red wine glass and her ass, heart-shaped . . . her body is literally the shape of romance. And the girl is happy! Really happy and goes around making other people feel as though she has been wanting to see them all day. Her personality is a positive exclamation point (!) and although she may or may not have slept with people to get her book deal, what she lost in respectability, she gained in $ signs. Her book deal is larger than Nate’s and although he doesn’t care much for her style or content of writing, he respects the “social savvy” required to attain a certain kind of success. Since Greer is well sexy, happy, and successful, Nate tolerates, even loves, her “crazy.” This summary has paraphrased and used characteristics as lifted from Waldman’s novel.

As I like to tell all my good girl friends, every douche has the potential to be a good guy and every good guy a douche.

One Fifth Avenue

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In this novel, through a constellation of various bloggers, writers, screenwriters and columnists, Bushnell gives us a glimpse into what’s inside the hearts of people who have made it, kind of made it, made it but in the wrong way, still want to make it, can no longer make it, have friends who made it or just starting to formulate their dreams of making it. “Good luck kid.” The ultimate prize in this novel is a beautiful Manhattan apartment, the penthouse of One Fifth Avenue.

The characters seemed so real, only their names seemed fictional which became slightly irritating because they were obvious ones like Diamond and Fabrikant, distracting me from the depth of the character development.

In one sentence, Bushnell makes a casual self-referential statement about the cultural phenomena of my generation known as Sex and the City that she helped spawn and immediately you realize the phenomena for Bushnell is much like the bus with your picture on it splashing you with rainwater.

“Lola had watched every single episode of Sex and the City at least “a hundred times,” and adored the idea of moving to the city and finding her own Mr. Big. If Mr. Big weren’t available, she would happily take fame, ideally becoming the star of her own reality show.” Bushnell

I don’t think Goethe ever wrote about all the crazy copycat Werthers his romantic novel The Sorrows of Young Werther inspired but if he had, it would have also been really cool.

Bushnell describes the strivers down to their weakest, ugliest bone, something I found Balzacian but she also casts a sympathetic eye to all, keeping the story human and cyclical. The story of New York lives beyond its characters, it is linear and shows no mercy, the people are the recycled parts.

 

The answer to why so many Berliners hang out

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This conversation took place while walking around Neukölln with a friend whose most important aim in life is to make money, save money and invest money. Therefore, he left Germany and moved to Switzerland.

“These people don’t know the value of their time, just look at all these people just hanging out.”

“Really, where?”

“At that restaurant and in these cafes. . . don’t they have anything to do?”

“Its dinnertime, they’re eating.”

Had I read Currid’s book on “The Warhol Economy,” I would have been able to answer this question properly defending all creative loafers in Berlin. Unfortunately, back then, I didn’t know the evergreen influence of Warhol or how the creative economy worked. As read in a Candace Bushnell novel, I didn’t know how to negotiate the system. Apparently, I should have been spending all my time on the Berghain dance floor and then at least my urine would have been part of an art exhibition.

Currid describes how the creative economy happens through proximity with other creatives in social settings, like bars, cafes, clubs as places where you not only meet the people you are looking for,  gatekeepers or tastemakers, but also as places to exchange ideas.

“No market relies more heavily on social networks than the exchange of cultural goods –like fashion, art, and music. Cultural industries and their products are driven by taste rather than performance.” Currid

So essentially creatives hang out in the same scene, and they give work and find work through loose social networks. They are the gypsy kings to merchant princes. #ebwhite